high seas

Wouldn't it be wonderful if everything were meaningless. But everything is so meaningful, and most everything turns to shit. Rejoice.
~Bazan

I'm so happy I'm rid of your stupid comments. I don't want to know what you think. it doesn't matter, you're nothing just like me.

I think its time we stopped beating ourselves up and cut our hair.

I think its time we stopped making jokes and actually did something worth His life. Damn! You're really stupid sometimes.

I wouldn't die for someone to be happy, I don't think God would either.

Jesus didn't waste his time not insulting people. When He knew he was right He said it.

I think its time we made someone feel real sorry for being human.

I'm not afraid to make you hurt. Its important to hurt.

Tell me whats wrong with me please.

God I don't want to stay the way I am even if I'm real happy.

I'll never be like Jesus, but why should I stop trying?

Cause I don't want to be like you.

I don't want to be like all of you people happy and lazy.

I don't want to be Human.

I'm sick of this place.

I'm sick of you.

I'm sick of me.

Its all gonna be fine though. Jamie is wonderful, I miss her so much. Some times I think the love between a Woman and a Man is what God gave as the only thing that could keep us from loosing hope. Not as if Jamie were all that matterd, but without her there would be almost no life to live at all. I wouldn't be who I am without her. I think the idea of being held and holding someone is beautiful, without her the love of God towards me would seem odd. I would have no concept of the kind of love a partner a supporter and contrary, even anemy would feel like. God is all of those things(yes an anemy, I'm sorry to say)minus the romance. I love Jamie with all my heart.
Being held by someone while you cry is beautiful. To feel safe, laying your head down on someone's chest. These things are so important. Being in love in any way is so very important. Being nice is not part showing love, well to a point it is. Like when Jamie is bothering me I useualy let it go. Cause I don't find it important enough to hurt her. But if she swears when I think she shouldn't have I'll say something. Thats how it works inside a relationship with a Woman and a Man. Thats one of the ways we show our love to eachother. But other christians or just people who you're close to, you don't treat them that way. You're allowed to be pissed off guys. And its not untill death do us part, okay? But someone outside your friends; you need to treat them real nice. Thats your job for that kind of situation.

So tell me off if you want to.
Be careful what you say to your girl or guy.
Be very nice to strangers, or anyone outside your tight circle.

Okay?

Thank you and God bless,
John